Sunday, January 3, 2010

Form Three! What to do?

Firstly, I wish to apologise to everyone for submitting my post at such a late time; about a month after this blog was created. Thanks to Dylan for adding me as an author to this blog, I greatly appreaciate it, thank you so much.

Also, on an early note, pardon me for any grammar mistakes I might make later. :)

To start things off, I want to add that, I'm not a Christian. But, this much is true, I believe in God, have believed ever since I went to Sunday Church School. Many people have asked me why I refused to accept Christ, even when I told them I believed in God and Jesus Christ. It's not that I refuse to accept Christianity as my religion, but I reckon everyone has the right to make these important decisions when they're older, when everything is not based on trying to mimick other friends' cultures as our own. A certain NSCFL camper has given me some useful advice regarding my opinion, and her words will always be remembered in my mind when I make the most significant decisions in my life later on.

So this is me expressing my opinions, mainly directed to tweens my age. And I'm sure everyone was or will be a Form Three student, or what my friends like to call 'The Year of Hell'. Who wouldn't be scared? I'm terrified, because I'm worried I wouldn't be able to exceed everyone's expectations. Through everyone's eyes, I'm the top student who would be most likely to score straight As in any exam. The peer pressure of wanting to get excellent results in PMR is enough to bring down my whole house.

I know, it's only the first day of school and I'm starting to gripe like a know-it-all, but I can imagine the difficult path already laid out in front of me. School, tuition, books, and more tuition. And I also know most seniors would say PMR is a piece of cake, which I get as rebukes very often, but the P to the M to the R feels like this huge time bomb that would drop on me if I don't succeed well enough. Typical me might be bent over books and notes studying all night and day like a crazed kid that would think the world is going to end if I don't get straight As.

But I still feel that way, only less now that I realise getting straight As in PMR, or any public exam at all isn't the main goal in life. Everything is in God's hands, His decisions to make, and whatever he decides, I won't try to disobey. Of course, I will still feel like an epic failure if I fail, but at least I still know that God is watching, and still loves me as of how I love Him as well.

In the end, it all comes down to God's love for all, whether you get 8As or 1A or none at all. We're still equal human beings. Acing an exam doesn't give us a crown or halo to glorify our success.

So, fellow Form Three students out there, let's not get too pressurised over this PMR, kay? The world doesn't revolve around it, and neither should our lives. Even though school life is about exams all the time.

God Bless, everyone, and have a happy new year. <3


Fly_OnD_Wall said...

Dear Michelle,

We are called to glorify God in everything that we do, and since studying is your occupation at the moment, would it not be good to glorify God by putting your best effort into your studies? Just food for thought.

Another point you might want to think about: You say that you believe in God and Jesus Christ. If you also believe that you are a sinner and that Jesus died so that your sins could be forgiven, then doesn't that already make you a Christian?

In love,

dy said...

No problem ;)
haha this post made me smile. All in God's hands, we have nothing to worry about as long as we're willingly working for Him! :)